YAY

Im alive.

and thinking of actually putting some effort into this blog,

just not yet!

when everything slows down and i have some time.

woooooooooooo

I Was Wrong

Those few days ROCKED!

Fire Raisers

The next few days WILL suck.

Halloween!

Yeah. Im late.

Halloween was AWESOME this year.

Went tick or treating with Val, and Diana.

Yes we are way too old for it.

I don't care.

Then to see the ROCKY ROCKY HORROR PICTURE SHOW!

yay.

Post for the Sake of Posting

I haven't posted anything in a long time
I haven’t done much homework in a long time
I haven’t practiced my violin in a long time
I haven’t done something that makes me happy in a long time

Maybe that’s why I have this sinking feeling again.

or not

I don't know anymore.

The Bus

Oh! lovely lovely lovely bus! How I love you. Your chuck full of sweaty, smelly people and crying babies. You’re so efficient. You arrive on time every day and always get me to my destination quickly. There is always a pleasant spot for me to sit in and I never have to stand and fall all over the other passengers. There is always someone interesting to talk to, someone with a booming voice that is louder then any headphone know to man. Oh bus! Your divers are so courteous and they always graciously welcome me with a smile. Did I mention that they are so attractive? And the way they drive! With the grace of a swan and the fervor of a cat in heat. Lovely Lovely Lovely LOVELY bus.

I Feel...

I feel dizzy.
Spiraling into a black hole
With no motivation
No light

I feel sick
Kill me
I wouldn’t really care
Everything that mattered is in the dust

I feel dizzy.
Stop the carrousel
Colors are a mush
Spinning spinning spinning spinning…

I feel sick
I feel dizzy
I feel fine

Or so I say.

Ball of Stress

So I've been a little ball of stress as of late.

Actually I've been one since school started.

So if you approach me or are in the general area around me and I flip out I assure you im not crazy.

Well i am crazy, but yeah.

I wonder if she had a headache from that?

QQ LOVE!

SO.

Today I went to QQ Tea Show avec Martha, Diana, Cathryn and James.

IT WAS AWESOME.

except we kinda drove James away when we started playing truth or dare.

I now have no money.

Well i do.

but i sure spent A LOT.

20 bucks on QQ food

and

1 buck on a Mango Madness cupcake

and

40 bucks on

TWO

pashminas

one blue for Diana as a late/early Christmas gift

and

one PURPLE leopard print pour moi.

i wish that my that my snapshot taker worked.

I LOVE MY LIFE

-Ailish xoxoxo

Lessons In Awesome (lesson one)

Lesson One:

When extremely bored, tease your hair and take ridiculous pictures of yourself.

shy.

BLAHH!

so.

as you may or may not know.

i.

ailish.

am.

SUPER.

shy.

most of you didn't know that, now did you?

and it pisses me off so much.

i can't talk to new people. i can't talk to the bank teller.

frack.

i try and i try and i try, but it usually turns out awkward and then the person is scared off because of

a) the awkwardness weirds them out so they run for the hills.

OR

b) I start to get a wee bit comfortable talking to said new person. Then I let my true colors shine and they run for the hills.

OR

c) I say something that creeps them out. Cue running for the hills now.

OR

d) On the off chance that someone new actually likes me. I find that I dislike them in the extreme and I run for the hills.

OR

e) On a VERY rare occasion, usually when there is a solar eclipse going on in our region and all the stars in the universe are aligned or the earth just decided to turn the opposite way for some odd reason, we become friends. We usually run for the hills together.

On another note:

HAH

I LOVE LOVE LOVE

this cartoon.

I want mile high hair,

all the time. Well maybe not all the time. Some of the time.

and im looking for the perfect corset pattern.

because i said so.

-Ailish

xoxoxoxo

sicko.

I've been sick for the past week or so.

And blah blah blah blah.

I really haven't felt like doing anything.

So YEAHHhhhhhhh....

My kitties, Jersey (the white and black one) and Sampson (the fluffy black one) to cheer me, and everyone else up!

-Ailish

xoxo

Reasons Why I Love You.

You’re the only one, who’ll rearrange books in Chapters with me,
the only one who won’t laugh at my Moleskin addiction,
who will spend long amounts of time just browsing the aisles,
who will sit on the floor and read Post Secret with me.
Thank You.

stuff.

So the Kite Runner is totally breaking my heart and I’m only half way through.
glares at val
but I love it, but is making me sad.

ANYWAY

School has been pretty good so far. I have strings, art english and math. I like every class except for math. It just kills me. I get so bored in class, not because it’s too easy, not because it’s too hard. I just can’t pay attention in math class and I just find it so grossly dull. I really couldn’t care less about functions or quadratics and all that crap that we have to learn. I fully understand that math is important; it makes the world go round (or so say my father in his infinite wisdom) I wish that all I was taught practical math. The kind of math that gets your taxes done or any other kind of math that is used daily. You could argue that its necessary for sciences or if a student is going into any area that requires heavy math. Why do I have to take another course no something that is wasting my time. I already know my general math from grade 9 and 10 and I could be taking another class that relates to what I want to go to university for. How come we are only required to take one art credit and three maths?! I am going to be an artist or musician and most math I’ll ever use is for measurements for art projects (and they will only require simple calculations) Maybe I’m so opposed to this kind of math because I still don’t see it as a necessary thing for m everyday life and because I just can’t seem to bend my mind around it sometimes. Oh well, I’ll suffer through my math class, hope to pass and be done with it. I’ll never have to take math again, thank the gods.

Wow what a tangent rant I went on there.

AH yes, that’s what I was thinking about before I got so gurr about math . ORCHESTRAS!!!
This year I am in three of them. East Hamilton Strings, Hamilton East Chamber Ensemble and The Westdale Symphonic Orchestra. As well as private lessons as well as music class this semester at Westdale! Holy crap. And my friends wanted me to join Westdale’s chamber as well. Oh also I’m still in Sts. Peter and Paul’s youth choir, joining Westdale’s new choir and having a vocal/ theory lesson. I’m also thinking of fitting in being a band member for Westdale’s musical, “ Cabaret” since I can’t dance with my stupid hurt ankle. HOLY CRAP.

HOLY CRAP.

oh well.

:)

Lessons in Awesome

now THIS is a dance fight!

Hat Love!

What ever happened to the pretty hat?
What ever happened to the beautiful and elegant hats that women used to wear?I say BRING THEM BACK!!

FAILING IS OKAY!!!

One of my main goals this year is to help my friends and people that i truly love reach their full potential.
I look around and see all these people around me practically teeming with talent and potential.
They say, “ I can’t” “I’ll just make mistakes” “I’ll FAIL”. I say, its okay if you fail at least you tried, at least you tried to be the best you can be.
I sound like a motivational speaker; I want people to see that if you just sit back and not take a chance by just trying something new, you'll die inside. I want them to be unafraid to fail.

FAILING IS OKAY.

You’ll pick yourself back up and learn. You’ll realize what went wrong and never do it wrong again. It’s hard to take chances, I know. I try to take a chance everyday, ever if that means walking into the bank and depositing a check by myself. I was petrified of talking to some bank lady. I’m a very shy person. BUT. I made myself do it. I try to write music. It usually doesn’t work out well, but I never give up I keep trying different things. I paint and draw. 85% of the time it doesn’t come out looking good, but I keep on painting because once in a while I’ll make something good, something beautiful.

So my dear ones, please take a chance, make music or draw or talk to someone new or try to do your math homework or try to sing or find something that you like to do and do it! don't worry about failing don't worry about what people say just do it because it makes you happy!!

DON'T BE SCARED TO FAIL!!!

-Love Ailish
xoxo

Things That I Like

Poptarts
Camping

Sunshine

Black pens

Art
Nutella

Tress
Rainbows

My family
Whiskers on kittens
Big hair
Your voice
Rain

Moleskins

Hair pins

That i live in Canada and in peace
Love
Books
Smiles

My friends

Socks
Black cats
Lavender
Roses
Singing

My kitties

The way you smell
Eskmo kisses

My love
Grass
Silver things

Musicals

Orange

Music
Zebras
Tress
The smell of a well-loved book
Tea

Dancing

My parents
The hazy lazy afternoon sunlight
Your music

Random things

This life

...so manny things that i love, so many things that i am so thankful for...

HELLO WORLD!

Hi.

im ace.

i like moleskins

and poptarts.

and dancing.

and singing.

and making lists.

and stuff.